Mental disorder is a subtle thing. A horrific and dangerous disease. A corruption of your ability to sense and see. My blind spots my issue, my selfishness, my fear my doubt my humor my brain is fucked. I'm a novelty friend to everyone I know. The fucked up thing is the people must've really loved me to stay around that long. I can't be a person. I don't understand anything and know I'm dumb. I was involuntarily admitted and spent a bit of time and you know what it didn't help. Lol